If I had to wager
I would say that this piece would be my most revealing, the most heartfelt and
the truest self-writing I have done in some time.
I am composing this mainly for myself, as an affirmation of my
beliefs but in doing so I hope everyone will take something from this.
I am highly opinionated but in the public eye, I tend to keep
my beliefs to myself most of the time and write about things that will better
our world and bring some much needed sunshine or reflection.
I began pondering this since yesterday and I have been
mentally making a list since then to prepare.
I will now discuss and list the things that I believe in.
Some are small, none are less than another but each one is something I am passionate
about and in sharing with you, perhaps you will assess what you stand for, have
a better understanding of who I am and walk away making a list for yourself.
I believe in heaven.
I believe that my greatest investments into the future are
my two sons.
I believe in owning a gun.
I believe in the power of touch. Whether it be a reassuring hug from a friend,
two sets of hands from your children on your back silently letting you know
they are behind you, a deep passionate kiss that makes you feel alive, the hand
of a stranger reaching to hold yours in times of struggle or grief. I think
that the power of touch is something we often disregard and it should be more
openly shown. I can recall many times in my life when a kiss on the head from
Mama, a hug from a best friend, a little hand in mine or a hug from behind and
a kiss on my shoulder breathed new life into me.
I believe in being silly, dancing with some pretty bad dance
moves with my kids, blowing bubbles or jumping off the couch wearing a blanket
cape pretending to be Batgirl, this is part of living. Silliness lends to a
happier heart and the struggles of life much more bearable.
I believe that in order to ask the good Lord to forgive you,
you must also be willing to forgive others. None of us are free from faults and
it seems hypocritical to want forgiveness if we aren’t willing to give it to
others. Not to say you should be a doormat, but forgiving someone gives you
freedom, you find peace within yourself and aren’t loaded down with bitterness.
I believe in love, I don’t really know how to elaborate on
this, I just believe in love, always.
I believe in helping others, no matter what. Never judging
them by them by their color, creed, religion, sexual preference, looks or
financial statement; If a person is in need, you address the need and look not
at what or who they are, you give freely because someday you might find
yourself reaching for a hand to help and in doing for other people might better
your chances of the goodness of others.
I believe in being a lady. I just can’t bring myself to be
crude or lewd, and I thank my Mother for setting such a wonderful example.
I believe in prayer, many long nights I have found myself on
my knees, and as the daylight came creeping into my vision it never fails that
my fear or request seems to be heard and the light of a new day is also the
beginning of an answered prayer.
I believe in words. Spoken and written. The amazing formation of words can do so many
things. Lift a wounded spirit, break a heart, or simply give hope.
I believe that music can cure and heal, but my personal
thought on music is that is gives us our own private time machine. You can be
transported to a better time, recall a memory or bring back your gusto all
through the lyrics and melody of song.
I believe that the children who were allowed to have muddy
kneed jeans, bugs in their pockets and dirt in between their toes grow up with
a better understanding of life and what joy really is and they hold that grasp
into adulthood.
I believe in people. As my grandma used to say “I don’t care
who it is, there is some good in there.”; We so often dismiss someone because
of a flaw or mistake and never look deeper or perhaps see our own flaws. So I
agree, “There is some good in there.”
I believe in beauty. Not the makeup and nail polish, I mean
honest to God beauty. I think our society has warped our minds on what is
beautiful, and to me, a sincere smile, a kind heart and a loving hand are what
makes someone beautiful, not a hair color or size tag. We just take everything at
face value, kind of like an orange, I have seen some that really didn’t look so
great on the outside and I peeled it anyway, but once inside it captivated me
with its sweetness and it truly tickled my senses.
I believe in death. I
know this sounds strange but in losing my Mother I have come to terms with my
fear. When I questioned her on departing
this world she always quoted the scripture, “There is a time to live, and there
is a time to die.” Looking back now, I see it. We are given a life, a chance to
live it, and when it is our time, and the cycle goes on, we must die. But
sometimes I think we die long before our heart stops beating by giving up and
not really living the life we have been given. We struggle, fight and don’t look seize
the opportunity to make it great.
I believe in karma. I with my whole heart have faith in the
theory that you always get what you give. Sometimes when people are wronged
they wish ill of that person, and seek revenge, wait it out, that circle will
complete itself and you WILL get what you gave whether it be positive or
negative.
I believe in nature. I believe that there is no better
feeling in the world than swirling around with a free heart in the pouring rain,
sticking my feet in a squishy mud hole, digging a hole and planting a tender
new life, listening to the birds call to one another, feeling the sun tingle on
my cheeks. Simple but yet so complex that we are a part of this beautiful
world, I love being outside, and if I really want to figure something out, or
write something I can’t seem to get right, I take it outside, and as the sky
opens, so do my thoughts and my cares drift away with that light breeze that
sweeps my hair out of my eyes. (Yes that does happen; more birds have seen both
my eyes than any other living creature.)
I am sure there are many more things I could list, and I
will but this is all for today.
I believe….
Here are my thoughts.
©
Teresa
