~Thought For The Day~ Fight On ©

     I am writing this today because I feel that I can.

Tomorrow it will be two years since I lost Mama. Two years, it seems so long ago, but also at times it feels like it was just yesterday.

I was thinking this morning about how far I have come.

I began thinking of Mom and at about 11 am today, was the last time I heard her speak.

Her final words to me, “I love you Tesi, we got this, Eye of the Tiger Baby.”

And then my world came crashing down.

I never dreamed I would be sitting here now able to talk about it, able to even function and even move on.

I have surprised myself. It is amazing how when you think you can’t, you really can. I remember being a fog for a long time, trying to numb myself, avoiding the topic and scared that if I cried that I would break.

Every single time that I felt like I couldn’t, I could hear here, pushing me, like only she could, telling me to fight; I have. Now here I am, and what have I become? I have become stronger, tougher skinned, and determined to live each day to the fullest. My main goal in life is to now live out my dreams, the dreams she never got to reach because her time here ended.

I want to take dance again, I want to write page after page, I want to start a charity for the poor. Oh let me rephrase, because I can hear her as I type, “don’t say I want, say, I will”.

All of these things I will do, no ifs ands or buts. It will be done.

Some of you may have been blessed enough to know my Mama, and if so I don’t have to tell you how she was, she was stubborn, feisty and determined, but there was such a gentle caring side that I saw so often. For those of you who didn’t know her, and know her only through my words, she was something else. A beauty, inside and out; She stood up for what she believed, she went against the grain and if anyone was in need of help, she was there.

Tomorrow is going to be tough, I am not why it is hitting me this year so hard, I guess the numb has worn off, but I will carry on, I will hold my head high, and keep reaching until I make all my dreams come true.

I want to tell you today, there is nothing you can’t do, nothing annoys me more than a quitter, a gloomy Gus or a pessimist.

 Get up off your rear end and make it happen. That is all that it takes. DO IT.

The one lesson I have learned from this climb, life can change dramatically in a matter of minutes. Your whole world can be cruising along and then BAM out of the blue something happens.

So my advice, from hard living experience, made into a list of course, is this.

Live now.

Love so much.

Speak your mind.

Don’t listen to others opinions that will drag you down.

If you want something, go get it.

Take time to tell those you love, that you do, and if can, show it some unique way.

Hug people.

Touch the hand of someone hurting.

Be satisfied with who you see in the mirror, don’t ever think you aren't enough, you are gorgeous, no matter the size tag in the back.

When people hate on you, smile at them, and keep going!

Live your life, your own way.

Be honest.

Live right.

Laugh a lot.

Smile, even when you are alone.

AND most important, don’t let one day pass without telling those that you love, how much they mean.

Hey Mama, I am getting the hang of this, you said I could and I am sorry I didn’t believe you. I still miss you so much, but I am still coming out of my corner swinging. EYE OF THE TIGER BABY!

 I just smiled and laughed, I can just hear Mom singing our Randleman High School fight song, “See them Tigers passing by, with their heads held high, Fight On, Fight On!” Do it! Fight on!

Here are my thoughts.

 ©

Teresa